SHOULD YOU STAY, OR SHOULD YOU GO?
I had finally understood that standing at the kitchen counter doing dishes while scheming and daydreaming about what I wanted to change in my life wasn’t going to bring it into being. I had to take in a deep breath, understand what it was that I wanted, and then declare it out loud. I had become resentful of my career. It was getting in the way of the work I truly loved to do in my off hours. I was fearful of becoming bitter. My Good Girl upbringing was holding me hostage in a worklife that didn’t fit anymore.
I shut down that Good Girl in my head that said, “the right thing would be stay right where you are, people are counting on you” and “you should be more grateful for the career your have, these kind of jobs don’t come along every day” and “who are you to think that you could be successful doing anything different“. Those thoughts had to be replaced by thoughts like, “you have so much to offer” and “you can weave in the “good stuff” that you love doing, plan an exit, and still be great at what at what you do here.”
In my off hours I began planning my exit strategy. I was so excited to be able to continue to perform well in my job because the thoughts of resentment disappeared. I maximized my off hours to plan, connect, and take action leading up to my break-free date.